Bad Karma...

Today I went to the flee market to see something that i've been anticipating on for the past week. There is this stand that sells pets (snakes, lizards, taegoon(?), birds, bunnies, ferrets, hamsters, guinea pigs, ets.) and this guy said he'll feed the snakes today...and since i've never seen a live show like that...so yeah, i went there today to see it...When i got there and asked if it was feeding time, he told me that he could start feeding one of the snakes for me to see...and i get to choose which snake will be fed and which mouse will be sacrificed (it was so hard and sad to choose the mouse, i told him to randomly pick one, but he wanted me to feed bad that i have to choose one)...let's just say it was sick for me to actually see this from the begining till the end (which i saw it twice today at different times)

After watching the 2nd one, things started to go wrong from there...the dad and the 2 sons would be walking around with the snakes around their necks (which is something that's usual), but today, they would be freaking me out with the snakes (like standing right next to me, or using the head or tail of the snake and touch me) and i got so paranoid over it that i'd be screaming so loud that other people would be thinking that i got bitten by the snakes (i was laughing and crying at the same time that they couldn't tell if i was just crying or laughing)...i don't like snakes, don't like the way they look and stuff, but i did convince myself before that i was gonna attempt to touch the snake today, but after the feeding and all, i didn't want to...maybe next week or so, will attempt to in the future...

Besides being freaked out by the snakes and the taegoon(?), i got paranoided over the parrot too...haha...i'm like scared of a lot of things...but birds scare me cause they tramatized me in the past...my cousin was playing with it and then the girl took it to play, somehow the bird went on my legs since we were sitting on the empty tables (thank god for long pants) i was screaming to have them take it off me, after the girl took it off, i cooled down a bit and looked over at the girl and saw that the bird was not on her hands, i then felt something on my back...feeling the claws on my back, i totally freaked out that i started to scream like no tomorrow and shedding tears for them to take it off me...the mom was yelling at them for freaking me out like that cause they freaked me out on the snakes and birds...

So do you think i deserved it today for the poor souls of the mouses to be eatten by the snakes for our entertainment? the people i know, they all said i deserved it...>.<

oh what a night!!!

so last night i went with out with my cousin to meet up with her friends who were gonna go to the mall to buy stuff. we made it to the mall that was gonna close in about 20 minutes, but they only made 1 stop to bath and body works to buy lotion. i was gonna buy something there too cause it was a blow out sale, but ended up not getting anything cause after sniffing all those different fragrances, i got a terrible headache. so i went out the store and sat by the fountain waiting for them all to finish shopping. turns out that all the big stores were closed and we had to walk all the way to the food court to exit and walk back a big semi circle back to the parking lot to get the car. afterwards we headed out to the outlet that closes at 11pm. as we got there, i decided to split up and go my way cause i don't really have much things to say to them (i'm nore on the aquaintance level then friends). i walked around the whole outlet twice and nothing caught my eye. after all the walking, my feet was killing me cause i was on my snow boots the whole day...they are warm and comfy, but not meant to be worn for a long period of time. i rested up a bit and was practically falling asleep since i was up so early in the morning. after waiting for another 10-15 minutes, i decided to head towards my cousin's car and sit on the trunk to wait for them. as i was approaching the car, this guy that works at the outlet as a taxi caller striked up a conversation with me. heck with it, i was bored and he decided to talk with me, so ok...a good way to kill time. we were talking about random things out in the parking lot for the past 30 minutes and instead of holding him up, i decided to walk back with him to his stand and go with him to put away his stuff. along the way, he gave me his number and told me to call him up if i ever wanted to go hang out and stuff. so as i was walking with him along the way, i finally see my cousin and her friends come out the store, from there we parted... i told my cousin about it and she gave me this look as usual that i'm psycho or something like that cause i can just talk to random people for a long time (but, its all based on who...if i feel uncomfortable around them then i don't talk at all) but she has never taken in account that whenever i go out with her, when she's mad tired, she will just talk to other people forever whether she knows them or not....so i don't see whats the big deal here!

after leaving the outlet, the girls wanted to go get some drinks...(at this time, there was me, my cousin, her best friend, her friends friend, and a guy friend)...after debating where they wanna go grab drinks, they agreed to go to TGIF. as we were seated, they didn't know what to get cause also the alcohol menu didn't indicate the price and they weren't looking on getting anything pricy. after 5 minutes of looking over the menu they all decided to leave the restuarant cause they didn't like the attitude the server was giving off (i wouldn't blame the server cause i witnesed it all...she asked if they were ready to order, and no one paid attention to her, after a min or two then someone said something and she walked away rudely) since they all said the server was rude, we all got up and left the place and just headed out to another restuarant a few blocks down. we went to the orlando ale house and as the 5 of us walked in to grab a table anywhere, it was so weird cause as we were making our way to the table, i can see a lot of people looking at us. i wasn't sure if it was because in a group of 5 people there were 2 asian, 2 white spanish chicks, and 1 white dude...or it was probably something else they were looking at because i know for a fact that none of us were dressed up fancy or sexy since it was cold everyone was wearing jeans and jackets and all covered up. anyways,  it was at this place that i actually had a good time minus the atmosphere of all the people and noise going on. that dude was weird, but fun. i died laughing there so many times. i guess i cried the most within this month in a good way. we were playing around and then he apologized to me for what he said that might have offended me or something like that, so i shot back at him saying that he's only saying it but not meaning it, and OMG! the next thing you know, he got down on his knees clasping his hands together to ask for forgiveness...this was like so embrassing and even his friend can't stand it, and to end the humiliation asap i had to say i forgive him and make him hurry up back on his legs. like omg, that was the first time i have seen a guy actually go and do that...haha...all i know is that i won't see those people anymore cause my cousin's friends are only here for a 2 week vacation and will be leaving in a week, and that dude...haha, no more encounters since he lives on the other side.

after this long night, we managed to get home around 1am. and after all the tiredness, i was blessed to have such a nice long uninterrupted sleep. something that i haven't felt in a long time. ^_^

chinese new year is almost here!!! it starts tomorrow and i can't believe it that i got the cleaning date wrong T_T i thought it was today, when it was actually friday and i didn't get to clean my room up cause i only managed to get a small percentage done. the before new year cleaning is what actually motivates me to get my ass up and start cleaning my room...and now that i missed the actual date, it seems useless for me clean up my mess...oh well, it'll have to wait one more year!

F-A-I-L-E-D

So today I had to wake up early in the morning to go and take the massage exam that I was sorta preparing for the past few weeks...The drive there was less than an hour since there was hardly any traffic. Got there early before the place was opened. After signing in and stuff, the test officially begins. A 2hour 40min exam on 160 questions...My mind was racing...racing with the time....Bad thing! and I know that too...when I tried to relax and slow down...I got so irritated by the clicking of the mouse from other test takers that I had to wear the headphone to conceal the noise, but it got so quiet that I can't focus either...lol...Looking at the screen, my mind went completely blank! Things that I remember, I couldn't remember anything today =(  I finished the exam in 2hr 30min and thought I did quite ok...but once I submitted the test, the screen automatically showed my test result which was either a pass or fail, and FAIL showed up! Well...I already know I was gonna fail to begin with, but I still wanted to know how I did...and man, that was a pang! in the heart...Knowing that I was gonna fail, and actually have reality hit you is two different things... I dunno how they actually grade it, but on the test paper (which doesn't tell you what you got right or wrong) only tells you there was 300 points and I got 249, so what does that mean? Besides I did pretty bad! So one thing is for sure...I'm a LOSER!!!!

There is a 60day time frame where I can resend my application in to get retested, but I really don't feel like sending it in cause 1) I ain't got the money for it since its $200+ , and 2) I don't wanna feel rushed. I want to take my time...and I thought, since I'm gonna be going back to college again this summer and I know I have to take up a science class, I thought i should take the exam after completion of the human anatomy and physiology class which will be taken some time in the fall so then it can help.

Other then that, I have to start looking in to get a job! I am literally going broke here! If I don't find one, I have no more money to pay off my car (about 2.5 more years to go), the insurance and gas that went up, and my endless creditcard bills... -_-;;

good or bad?

Today I had talked with 2 friends who I haven't kept in contact with for awhile. The first one is my girl friend who is a total bitch! Well, technically she's not a real bitch, but the things that she says makes it so annoying...that I sometimes just wanna strangle her for it! As always, the past few times we spoke on the phone, it's always about me and what kinda job I'm working at. When I told her I was working in a restaurant as a server, she was shocked and responded back: "OMG! Why are you working as a server?  I thought you're working at a better place then that! You know so and so is working at this place and she just graduated with her degree too..." Honestly, I hate it when people compare me to others...cause I know I'm not better then them...but from her, it always piss me off! So I told her off...but she just says 'yeah I know, I get what you mean', and later on she goes on it again!!! *sigh* Sometimes I don't even want to talk with her...but it's just mean (not like I've never done anything like that before in the past, just not lately...lol...)

The second person that I talked with is another friend back in college who has moved to hawaii to continue education. We haven't talked in a long time, and today I saw him online and dropped him a message (not like he was gonna responded back because thats what he usually do). But to my surpirse, we actually had a long talk over MSN (well, not really a long one cause both parties always pause for a long time before replying) Turns out that he'll be heading over here to Orlando next week to start his intern in Disney (oh wow! how interesting...never get why people actually like to come and work for disney for their intern -_-; )  Exchanged phone numbers once again...so if he'd like to meet up, I guess it wouldn't hurt...But from the info that he's telling me...a guy who used to say he won't date anyone until they graduate and have a career...turns out to be completely opposite of what he's saying...does that mean he's cast the old thoughts away to make him become a better person/achiever?

I dunno...sometimes you stand firmly to your thoughts that you won't let other things in...so if you change your view, does that mean you'll be able to grasp onto something worthwhile? become someone whose changing for the good and achieve better things? I'm confused...do you think this post don't make sense anymore? cause I can't think straight anymore. I think I should do something...

MERRY CHRISTMAS~!!! ^_^

This year, the feeling of christmas isn't that exciting...I mean when the clock stroke 12 and presents were being exchanged and opened, the feeling of it was wonderful. But somehow, it was just a temporary joy and the day returned back to a regular day but more boring since mostly all places are closed.

Didn't quite do much today...just sat in front of the computer playing online games and just waiting for the time to come to go and change for a movie night. We have free tickets to go watch the 'Bedtime Stories' which are in theaters today. My first time actually going to the movies on Christmas day, and by golly...it was packed! the long lines, and full house in the theater...Since there were 4 of us, we had to split up to get some seats but it was still a good thing since we don't have to sit together. The movie was actually kinda good...and the dude sitting next to me along with his girlfriend and family was falling asleep when there was about 20 minutes more till the movies over. -_-;;

As I pulled the car outta the plaza, I was lucky to see a shooting star while I was looking around waiting for the traffic light to turn green ^_^  First star I saw after all these years. I didn't quite make a wish, but I hope it'll still bring me luck...lol...

For christmas this year, I got: 2 tokidoki t-shirts, a cardigan from AE, t-shirt from aero, scented tealights in cranberry from yankee candle, tea leaves from teavana (still didn't understand why she would waste money in getting me tea leaves! O_oa) and Christmas money. Doesn't seem like I got a lot of stuff this year, but actually...it's the most priciest year in gifts I've ever gotten.